Day 10

Today was full of excuses. Part two.

I don’t know if I was kidding myself earlier when I said that it was becoming easier to make myself go to the gym.  Because it is hard. Today I felt like all the motivation in the world wasn’t going to get me to go to the gym.  I don’t know, it’s like, ever since I saw that personal trainer, I thought it was going to…inspire me. But I feel like it only brought me down.  The excuses were the same as yesterday.  I’m too tired.  I have to get up early.  I have to go to bed early.  One more show.  (Did I mention that I watch way too much TV?)

So I stopped in the middle of last seasons Once Upon A Time.  I love the show but I just stopped watching it.   I keep wanting to start back up.  This new season looks fantastic. I decided that if I’m going to sit and watch this tv show, I might as well walk and watch it instead.  So I went.  I got on a treadmill and for 45 minutes picked up from where I left off.  I’m excited to see the next episode.  But what’s more…I’m glad I went to the gym today.

Once Upon A Time

Once Upon A Time

Day 6

When I signed up for the challenge, I also signed up to see a personal trainer.  I figured the more motivation the better.  Today was my first session.  I don’t know what I thought was going to happen.  I don’t know what I expected.  I was nervous driving to the gym.  I think… I was expecting that he would show me the various machines and how to use them.  That he would see what I already knew and what I needed to know.  That’s not what happened.  I don’t know.  I don’t think I liked it.  I didn’t feel as if he was helping me with what I needed to achieve to lose weight.  I didn’t feel pushed the whole time.  I might go to one more session and see if it’s any different.   I mean, it’s the first one so it has to go up from there.

I feel as if I’m finally getting into a habit of going to the gym. I know it’s early…only 6 days.  But it’s more than I’ve gone in the last 6 months.  I’m seeing a little progress.  I’ve gotten on the scale every day.  I know I’m not supposed to.  I don’t see any difference in my clothes.  I just want to see if it’s working. And it is.  A little.  Again, I know it’s only been 6 days so I shouldn’t be expecting to see a big jump.

I’ve heard people say that when they workout they feel better throughout the day.  I think that is b.s.  I don’t feel better.  I don’t necessarily feel worse but it doesn’t make me feel better.  I think I still have the same amount of energy I had before I started working out.  Maybe as time goes by I’ll start to feel different about it.

Remind yourself that it's okay not to be perfect.

Remind yourself that it’s okay not to be perfect.